Month: March 2007

  • what you always thought
    what you always felt
    what you never wanted to know...
    what special things about you went ignored

    i'm sick.
    i haven't eaten.
    people say they care but they don't
    they can't even tell you how they feel
    or really take a leap of ridiculousness

    i'm done being dillusional.
    false intentions and false promises.

    i welcome nothing less than true friendship now.  you have to earn trust.

  • "Good friends are like stars..
    You don`t always see them,
    But you know they are always there."

  • idealistic to a fault

    dearest heart-

    you told me to trust and take a leap of faith...
    next time I should be mindful to also keep all hopes and dreams grounded in the cold realities of this world
    so as not to lose myself in the idealistic false promises of a world that never existed.

    sometimes, you're just idealistic to a fault
    especially in a world where hopes are nothing more than roads that lead to dead ends.
    no matter how much care and love there is - there's no room for happy endings, they're just cold, dark empty alleyways with false lighting.

    sometimes no matter how much you wanted something - it just wasn't meant to be.
    no matter how hard you try - the timing wasn't right for you to be tugging at the stubborn root anyways.

    dearest heart...please stop hurting so much and take better care to not be so fragile and gullible.

    sometimes you just have to realize that all the trying in the world isn't getting you anywhere... and maybe you just have to let go
    and let fate take the wheel again...and if it was ever truly meant to be, it will be...but you have to trust in there being a reason for everything
    being a certain way and a reason for things happening and not happening. and trust letting go of the control just to be safe.

    "A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who mean so much to you,
    only find out at the end and that you`re never meant to be and you`ll have to let
    go."

    "It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return,
    but what is more painful is to love someone
    and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel"

    "Good friends are like stars..
    You don`t always see them,
    But you know they are always there."
    "It hurts to love someone and not be

    Thanks for loving me and for being my best friend.

  • Trust & Love

    Trust

    1. Trust is a two way street; you get it if you give it. For example: if you want your parents
      to trust you try trusting them with the truth about what is going on in your life, if you want a relationship
      built on trust you have to trust in the other person as much as you do in yourself.
    2. Parents will usually give trust freely until you do something to break it. If this isn't the case in
      your family and you really can't see why your parents don't trust you just come right out and ask them for an explanation.
    3. Sometimes people don't trust you because of the actions of a person close to you. It is all too common
      for the behavior of older siblings or friends to cause parents and teachers to doubt you. Accept that this is what
      is happening, don't fight it, and work at proving that in spite of the actions of others you can be trusted.
    4. Sometimes trust has to be earned. If you had trust but did something to break it, it is possible to fix things.
      But in doing so remember that as the trust breaker you don't get to set the expectations, terms or time frame for
      earning that trust back.
    5. In order to fix broken trust both sides have to want the trust back. You can never force a person to trust you.
    6. Your parents want to trust you! What you see as mistrust of you could really be fear, mistrust of those around you and/or
      their natural protective instincts at work.
    7. Some people have been so badly hurt in the past that they have great difficulty trusting others. If you have a
      person like this in your life accept that there will always be an element of mistrust in your relationship and be prepared
      to work overtime to prove that you can be trusted.
    8. Trust is an essential part of ALL successful relationships be they academic, romantic, friendly or
      familial.
    9. Trust is an essential part of sex - if you don't trust your partner 110% don't have sex with them.
    10. Trust is a gift - you give it and you receive it. It should never be taken for granted.

    Love

    1. Love does not hurt. Physical and/or emotional abuse are not a part of love.
    2. Love is not manipulative, it should not be used to get others to do what you want. You should never give in to demands
      based on the, "You would do it if you loved me!" tactic.
    3. Love is an intense feeling of caring for another person. It can take many different forms (romantic, friendly, familial) but
      it is always about caring.
    4. Although it is true that a big part of love is putting another person's happiness ahead of your own this never
      includes compromising your values or being untrue to yourself.
    5. If
      somebody asks you to do something that you don't want to do in order to
      "prove" your love they do not love you the way
      you might think they do. When you love another person you don't ask
      them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of that love.
    6. It is very easy to confuse lust for love. The true measure of romantic love is commitment and trust not
      physical attraction.
    7. It is possible to feel romantic love for more than one person at a given time. Just think, if it is possible for you to love
      both of your parents at the same time why would it be impossible to feel romantic love for two people at once? Don't beat
      yourself up emotionally if you find yourself in this unhappy situation. But be sure to remain single and be open and honest
      with all parties about your feelings and confusion.
    8. Sex is NOT love. Love is NOT sex. Sex can be a part of romantic love but it is never mandatory.
    9. Romantic love can (and often does) fade. When it goes there is not always a reason. When somebody falls out of love
      with you it does not reflect upon your value as a person or your desirability.
    10. Love should make you feel happy, secure and appreciated.